19 July, 2008
i'm gonna be ranting for this whole post.
don't say i did not warn you, its gonna be double the effect because its emo-ism coupled with PMS.
so u wanna hear the plans of my "so-called" future endeavors. the reason why i termed it "so-called" because it has not happened yet, nor i have seen any signs of it happening (still studying at the moment). you say u worry about my future, or gladly assume that i have not been planning anything on what am i gonna do in future (in other words, idling). well, i'd rather tell u what i have decided, with the most most concrete plan i have. that's all it matters, right?
why is that so, because i do not need to u to worry. its my future, and i worry for it too, more than u do. i want to, and will plan my own future.
since i'm lagging behind my peers for half a semester (fuck it, now everyone knows), so i do not have the liberty of having time to decide what to do, or having some relax time before i actually step in to the society, so i decide now. people might think its presumptuous, well actually it is. because i am assuming.
assuming i want to carry on working in the polymer industry (at the moment), take the conventional route: advanced diploma, then master's in London. its the route SP has set for us, its the safest and more reliable route.
another is to heck it and get a degree from SIM or other university which might not be totally related to my course of study, and that's where MONEY comes into the picture. not hundreds, not thousands, but tens or few hundred thousands.
and of course right after i graduate i'm gonna work full-time, before the next intake which i guess will be next year. i cant rest. i cannot rest, because i've already lost time.
after all, in this society, having a degree is nothing.
so that's what it is for now because i have not even fucking finished exams yet.
you guys said u all will give me the best, well i do not need the best. i just want to feel loved always.
19 July, 2008
i'm gonna be ranting for this whole post.
don't say i did not warn you, its gonna be double the effect because its emo-ism coupled with PMS.
so u wanna hear the plans of my "so-called" future endeavors. the reason why i termed it "so-called" because it has not happened yet, nor i have seen any signs of it happening (still studying at the moment). you say u worry about my future, or gladly assume that i have not been planning anything on what am i gonna do in future (in other words, idling). well, i'd rather tell u what i have decided, with the most most concrete plan i have. that's all it matters, right?
why is that so, because i do not need to u to worry. its my future, and i worry for it too, more than u do. i want to, and will plan my own future.
since i'm lagging behind my peers for half a semester (fuck it, now everyone knows), so i do not have the liberty of having time to decide what to do, or having some relax time before i actually step in to the society, so i decide now. people might think its presumptuous, well actually it is. because i am assuming.
assuming i want to carry on working in the polymer industry (at the moment), take the conventional route: advanced diploma, then master's in London. its the route SP has set for us, its the safest and more reliable route.
another is to heck it and get a degree from SIM or other university which might not be totally related to my course of study, and that's where MONEY comes into the picture. not hundreds, not thousands, but tens or few hundred thousands.
and of course right after i graduate i'm gonna work full-time, before the next intake which i guess will be next year. i cant rest. i cannot rest, because i've already lost time.
after all, in this society, having a degree is nothing.
so that's what it is for now because i have not even fucking finished exams yet.
you guys said u all will give me the best, well i do not need the best. i just want to feel loved always.
